I Am Judas (Communion Thoughts)
I Am Judas (Communion Thoughts)
When I look at the Bible and read the scriptures, I see bones. I see the structure that was left centuries before, it may seem a little bare and left open but the facts are there. However, as I read these passages in my mind they come to life. Similar to what Ezekiel saw in the valley of dry bones (but definitely not as creepy): “This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.” This breath of life into the scripture is the breath of the Holy Spirit. The Spirit is what dusts off these bones and gives these ancient remote characters from a different time, a different culture, flesh just as palpable as our own.
Putting Flesh On The Last Supper
Through this lens, when I read the last supper, my favorite moments to reconstruct are those that may have happened between Judas and Jesus. As the disciples all filed in to this small upper room, was Judas avoiding Jesus? As they ate together, like they would had done a thousand times before, did Judas lose his appetite because of that sinking feeling in his gut that we all get when we know we have done something monumentally wrong? Then Jesus orchestrated an intimate moment with each individual disciple through the washing of their feet. Now Judas would be forced into an interaction with Jesus, the man he followed devotedly for years and at a previous time would probably have love His individual attention, but not this night. In this moment between the two of them would Jesus have lingered at Judas’ feet? Maybe looked him square in the eye measuring up the soul of this small and sinful man, and deciding then, “yes, I’ll walk through hell for you.” And in this moment I am Judas. I am the one with a pit in my stomach, avoiding the one I love the most because I know I will break His heart. Jesus said to Peter, “Unless I wash you, you have no part with Me.” Jesus washed JUDAS’ feet, and in doing so He is saying to Judas, “you are a part of me.” Knowing all the while what Judas was about to do. And at the cost of His life He has washed us as well. If you think you’re in too deep and there is no way out Jesus says to you, “yes, I walked through hell for you. You are welcome to be a part of Me.” As we recreate this Passover moment between Jesus and the disciples, let us use it as a tangible reminder of what Jesus suffered so that we could be free. Regardless of where you are in life, you are welcome to participate in this communion.
Pray with me: God, we praise and glorify you for all that you are. We ask that you bless the juice and bread that we are about to take in remembrance of Christ’s body broken for us and His blood shed for us. May your Spirit fill this room and change our hearts today.
Hannah is a stay-at-home bio / foster / adoptive mom. She and her husband Cory have 3 beautiful toddlers Solomon, Margo, and Juniper. Hannah Likes the mountains, NPR, herbs, and podcasts. She is obsessed with food and easily hangry-ed.