He that knows all, knows my prayers!
Too Many Emotions at Once
The last few months have been a roller-coaster of emotions and I am grateful for them because through it all there was a light at the end of each of my tunnels. Often, I wonder why some things happen the way they do! And often I pray that I may see what good thing may come out of it as well, not to be replaced by, but to have joy over it and be grateful.
Rejoice in the LORD always. I will say it again: Rejoice!
On November 7th, 2016 TJ (my husband) and I went through a very sad and heartbreaking situation. We miscarried and don’t think we will ever get over this traumatic event, physically and emotionally. Only by the Grace of God and your prayers, we were able to stay strong. Before that event happened, we had decided to foster and give a child the life he/she deserved, and we had worked through getting certified to become DHS approved.
Back in September 2017 we got the most loving and precious 4-year-old little boy placed at our home. Our emotions got stirred: we were shocked, amazed, scared, angry, saddened, terrified, happy, etc. We were new to what it was like to be responsible for a life that is fully dependent upon our care. Among all those emotions we were thrilled to be able to share our home with another human being daily and do what God has command us to do.
"Whoever welcomes one of these little children in my name welcomes me; and whoever welcomes me does not welcome me but the one who sent me."
We are tremendously blessed, and our lives have been changed forever, for the better. Having been adopted myself, my dream has always been to do something beyond my own capabilities and make a difference in someone’s life, a child’s life. I know how it feels to be welcomed in a loving and caring home, to have your basic needs met (far beyond the basics) and to be able to see the light shining through many different people and situations as I grew. I know God has always been there walking right in front of me, next to me and behind me in every situation and has shown himself in many ways.
As I mentioned before, the feeling of sadness of miscarrying is heartbreaking—I can’t compare it to anything. But the feeling of knowing that God has entrusted you to care for a child is also indescribable.
On November 6th, 2018, we finally were able to breath peacefully knowing that this child who had been part of our lives for over a year, would now be part of our family forever. With much joy we can now move forward with the adoption process. This is a privilege and a joy we can’t explain!!
Normally, I would think, what a coincidence this is, on the dates, two years later. Instead, I truly believe this is the way God is speaking to me, “YES! There was sadness but here is happiness, overflowing joy” “and YES, your prayer was answered, not your way but my way, the perfect way!”
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Down the Immigration Road
I have been in the States for close to 5 years now, which is the same length of time I have been happily married to TJ. My immigration process began in my home country’s embassy 6 years ago. In August 2018, I received an immigration notice stating, “GOOD FAITH MARRIAGE, INSUFFICIENT EVIDENCE” after we had waiting about 2 years to get a response and after our case had been moved from California to Texas. All I can say is that this is a very difficult, exhausting and expensive process. More than ever, I am convinced that God is leading me where to go and He will make the way.
On November 24, 2018, I got my Permanent Resident Card, “Green Card” in the mail! I stopped and stared at it for a while and immediately my mind went back to remembering what all had taken from me to be able to hold that card. I am beyond grateful with God and the people that are part of my life, their prayers, once again kept us strong.
What else were we up to in 2018?
We had a wonderful Journey Staff and Spouses trip to The Harbor 2018! @ Pepperdine University in Malibu, California.
TJ and I traveled to India, with family (TJ’s Dad, Mom, and 2 sisters. My Mom, Sister and her Husband. We had the time of our Lives — in different ways!!
TJ has been doing a lot of traveling in the last 3 months.
“Little T” is such a loving little, boy. He is growing more than ever, amazing us every time with his grown-up questions and creative imagination. He likes to be called SPIDER MAN all day long, every day.
We have been enjoying our new home!
I am currently taking a Children’s Ministry Certificate at Oklahoma Christian.
There are a couple of things that I remind myself constantly, and those are, “nothing can be done on my own strength,” “prayers may not be answered the way I want them to,” “where God is at work, the evil one is also at work,” and “talking to God is like exercising, the more I do it, the easier it becomes”!! We experienced them all this year.
To my extended family, my God given friends, co-workers and church family for your support, encouragement and constant prayer over my family, you are priceless and we love you dearly.
Keep shining that LIGHT!
Feel free to check out my other blogs. Also, there will be a blog coming up where I share more in detail what my road has been like, with Immigration.
Bartola is the Children’s Minister and is married to Thomas (TJ) Kuruvilla. They are current foster parents of a wonderful 5 year old boy. They love serving within the church and outside of it as opportunities present themselves. Being an adopted kid herself, Bartola has a heart for missions and grew up as the result of Mission Predisan in Honduras. As a Loving Wife, Mom, and Children’s Minister, Bartola is astonished to see how God’s hand has worked in her life.